When will this end?

...its that part of year again...I am surrounded by questions again...Is is wrong to dream....or to express yourself...what is right...what is wrong, it is right to do this?...Ordinary people go more fast then me...Is being talented a curse? Or not being talented a boon...Is this a big illusion...Reality is harsh, Illusions are fake.. What to choose? What to deny....When is it going to end....The World screws you up completely at the instance when you feel you just begin to undestand it....I am unhappy, angry...unsatisfied...got to make up my mind...Its going to be solved....Its going to be over...Its going to end...It ends here....My words are empty...no power in them....I have lost them....Where is it?..Bring it back..Mayhem, Destruction....The Dark Forces of Nature...fill me with strength....Take me......No mercy....Put out my flames with water.....The air is poison..The Beast turned pale...The Stars lost its shine......Water....Water....Show me the way to eternity.....Lead me along...Guide me to that path.......Water....Water.....Who is Satan? Who is God....Are they one in all?...Dreams turning to dust....Dreams turning to ashes......Show me the Saviour....